I truly want to believe that everyone has good intentions and humans are incapable of indecencies but I can’t help being cynical. I think that’s why I turned towards religion -I just want to believe so desperately that people are inherently good… but, there’s so much crap going on in this world. I think how I respond to people sometimes reflect how cynical I am. I wish I could offer more positive advice.
I’m on facebook-hiatus! Hopefully this is going to last. I just had to eliminate the biggest distraction when I’m on the computer and I feel a little liberated. After going to the facebook page, I realize that I don’t have a profile anymore and this does feel a little disconnecting to the virtual world but so what? Now I spend that time trying to read the news or working on my assignments. The idea of giving users the option of adopting an @facebook.com email address is a little daunting too. Maybe we’re giving too much of ourselves away to Facebook.
Ah shit. This is a news article I found on nytimes.com and it’s so true. I feel like I spend every making moment attached to an electronic device (namely a computer..). Like today, the moment I had free time I headed straight into the direction of any facilities with computers when I could spend that time reading. I ought to carry around a book.
You need so much patience when you’re painting your nails or when you’re getting a manicure/pedicure. For the first time before CJA Banquet, Jinah Unnie took me to a salon to get my nails done. The french nails I got were pretty but I started picking and biting my nails (habits never go away). I swear I’m orally-fixated. That was a waste. No more manicure dates for me since I’m taking my good old violin with me to the USA. I guess 10 years of violin playing is not going to be wasted (which reminds me.. I should really change those strings..)
Just painted my nails black and I managed to do it horribly. What a waste of Chanel nail polish. The moment I apply nail polish to my nails I start hammering away at the keyboard. Now they’re partially ruined. I’m sad now. I need to take better care of my belongings (including body parts). My nails are so fitting with my outfit right now! I’m in looove. I love the dress I purchased (the top..not so much since my arms look HUGE). I just need to lose a little fat there..and there.. and uh there too.
Blogging at 5am in the morning is becoming a routine. Bad.
Who cares, it’s still the holidays and I manage to wake up to my dates with my friends, right? :) The chocolate taiwanese ice flakes I had with Devanne was made of WIN. It was dericious. Anyways, gotta stop talking like Ruis (there I go again). Haha. I think I’m in a good mood. Don’t want to sleep. I hope this feeling doesn’t go away cause it certainly doesn’t come very often when I’m alone. I wish I could feel this confident all the time.
엄마, 아빠 너무 죄송해요. 자랑스러운 큰딸이되지 못해서 맨날 미안합니다.
그토록 열심히 일하셔가지고 좋은 학교에 보내주시는데 기대하시는만큼 해드리지 못해서 너무 죄송해요.. 꿈이 없는 제 자신이 너무 실망스러워요… 계속 작아지는 제가.. 자심감이 없는 제가 너무 부끄러워요. 자랑스러운 딸이 되고싶은데….
죄송해요.. 그런 딸이 못되드려서…
그래도 제 옆에 건강히 계시는 엄마 아빠.. 너무 감사하고 사랑해요
이제 그만 울고 열심히 살께요. 희망을 가지고 살께요.
감사합니다.
We have now stepped into the first decade of the first millennium… but what have I done in the past year…? I have absolutely no idea. The past year was a blur. There was nothing significant about it. I just seemed to fail at everything (GPA inclusive).
The year 2009 did not end graciously for me. I ended up puffy-eyed and swollen yet again. When my parents questioned me about the inevitable I couldn’t speak up. Obviously they deserved to know how lost I felt but I didn’t want to admit my failures.
I don’t feel like blogging.. I’ll continue later.
I wish they left the bottle of whiskey :(
Hi! Yes, I moved on from Xanga finally. I used to blog privately but I have decided it’s time to take it somewhere else. I’m not a very confident writer, neither am I a great one, and thus I named my blog ‘The incompetent writer’. It’d be nice for the few of you who do follow my blog to cheer me on as I embark on a mission (I’m being way too dramatic) to become a better writer. Anyways, Merry Christmas to you all and have fun counting down to the first decade of this millennium!
